For a Season

For a Season..... I hear this over and over. After returning back to work to help my family financially I question why? I know the immediate reasons, Hubby's work is very slow and we have had an income decrease, we are raising money for an adoption and need every penny available. I get these the immediate reasons however it is the long term I question. I have prayed over recent months about what it looks like in God's eyes to live in the world but not be of the world... Well He picked me up an put me right in the world, the trucking world! WOW!  After submerging myself in my safe "Christian Bubble" I need to be a light in the world. After all isn't that what we are called to do? Spread the Gospel? I felt safe in my bubble! After all I knew worldly ways and worked so hard to turn from my selfish ways at all cost. Including relationships, family, work. I thought I would be a stay at  home Mom forever... not for a season!
I think about seasons of weather over the last year, we had a very long hot summer, then a very long cold winter, the kids will be out of school in two weeks and I had to dress them in hoodies and jeans today! Who truly can predict how long a season will be? One thing I do know is that each of them do come to an end and start at the beginning of another. With a new season brings the excitement of comforting things like winter....sledding, sweaters,and snowman's. Springs...green leaves, gardens and grasshoppers. 
I have a sense of anticipation to see this season in full bloom. Praying for the adoption to grow into reality. Praying to raise money this season, Praying to watch our adopted children bloom  in  our home this season. Just the same as I can not predict how many inches of snow we will receive or how many apples will bloom on my apple tree, I can not predict how this season will end, but I know the One who does. The One who promises fruit in this season. It may not be the fruit I planted but His is much sweeter than mine.
I pray that I will be a light in a dark world during this season, planting seeds and helping another to grow.
We have not had any updates on the boys since Feb. since they are back on the waiting list we are not privy to there medical updates or pictures. Breaks my heart and I often pray for some one to see their sweet faces and fall deeply in love with them as we did. I only want God's will for their lives. We are still waiting for the home study to be approved so that we can apply for grants to raise enough money to get them off the waiting list ( Lord Willing).
Waiting..... For a Season!